It's been a minute
It's been too long, longer than anticipated. Last month was pretty rough. I wanted to post, but I couldn't muster up the motivation to do so. Besides, I needed to attend to my waning mental health. As it turns out, going a month without my stimulant medication really fucking sucks. It was naive of me to think that I could make it through the month without meds. I figured that since I had gone my whole life with untreated ADHD, what was another month?
Little did I know just how much my life had improved on stimulants. I learned pretty quickly as I grew increasingly irritable, fatigued, and depressed over the course of the month. It reached a head a couple of weeks ago, forcing me to take some time away from work to sort myself out. That meant finally coming to terms with the fact that I hate my job and have for a long time. This wasn't news to me, I'd known for some time that I was deeply unhappy here, but what other choice did I have? Everywhere I looked was just as bleak. I, at the very least, have a job, even if it's soul crushing.
Eventually, something has to give, and that something just happened to be my mental health. Since I started taking my meds again, my mental health has improved drastically. I don't think I would've been able to write this blog post without them. So much work has piled up over the last month, and now that I finally have the energy to do it, it's time I locked in. The first order of business: writing a cover letter.
Wish me luck!
